Wow. Wow. Wow.
What a week it has been. The days have been so so long but I can't believe Madison has already been in the world for a whole week. I plan on sharing her (very short) birth story soon, but I wanted to share how my week has been. Mostly as something for me to come back to and laugh at later.
I'll start from Day 1:
Madison came home February 23rd, the day after she was born, and London came home from my moms the day after to meet her sister. As you will be able to tell from the following pictures, London loves her sister. SO much so, that she constantly wants to hold her, gets all kinds of giddy when she sees her after a nap or in the morning, gives her kisses, hugs, and touches her head all the time. But it has also caused her to act out when we won't let her hold her baby sister because she's sleeping, or needs to eat, etc. And then the acting out can lead to her waking up Madison, which leads to this mama almost loosing her mind. Jason and I are both learning how to deal with it. Obviously we want her to WANT to be involved with Madison, but teaching her not to act that way because she isn't getting what she wants is the key thing. But she is a GREAT big sister and we love her and all the sass that comes with her. This night we let London stay up late and we popped popcorn and rented Big Hero 6 (which she had zero interest in) to make her feel special and know that just because there is a new baby in the house, mommy and daddy can and want to still do fun things just for her.
Day 2: 2/25/2015
This was our first FULL day having both girls at home. I am so thankful Jason was able to take two weeks off of work to be home with me. We didn't do much this day. We certainly aren't wanting to take Madison anywhere at this time, and since I'm breast feeding and she eats all. the. time, I'm pretty much stuck at the house too. But this day, nobody went anywhere. We just enjoyed being at home together finally and are all trying to get used to our new norm.
I of course wanted to snap some sweet pictures of this sisterly love.
Day 3: 2/26/2015
Today Jason had to go in to work for just a few hours to take care of some things, which left me at home with both girls by myself. Pretty soon after Jason walked out the door, a little after lunch time, I whipped out the paints and play doh for London. I know she enjoys those things and Im trying my best to make sure she does things she enjoys among the chaos of a new baby. She began painting a picture beautifully, not making too big of a mess but I expected SOME mess. It is paint after all. And making messes is good for a toddler. I attempted to put Madison in her mamaroo for a bit but it didn't last too long, so hold her I did until she fell asleep. I told London I was going to go lay Madison down and then was hoping for some sweet 1-on-1 time with her. By the time I came out of the room, London had poured, what I thought was a far enough out of reach red bottle of paint, out on to the table. All of it. Because it was everywhere, I had to throw out her paper she was painting on, which led to a break down from London, which led to her waking up Madison, which led to both girls crying while I am trying to clean up red paint. I managed it. But it immediately called for a movie for London so I could calm my nerves. I told Jason to bring me home a coke-icee. He did.
This day I was feeling super thankful for baby Madison, specifically around 3:30 when I was able to get both girls down for a nap at the same time again. Whoo! She has been a super easy baby in terms of not having to be held all the time (like her big sister was). She took a 2-3 hour nap in her little cuddle cove of her pack play (when London was a baby, she would not sleep on her back. You either had to be cradling her or she had to be on her tummy). After I was able to lay her down for a nap, I was able to rock London and get her down for a nap too.
These are a few photos of Madison napping that evening. Jason had taken London to guys group.
Day 4: 2/27/2015
Today Madison had to go back to the pediatrician, just for a weigh in. Her first trip to the pediatrician was the day after we came home, which we had to do in order for us to be able to leave the hospital early. At birth, Madison weighed 8lbs 7oz and that Tuesday she weighed 8lbs and by today she weighed 8lbs 9oz. Home girl gained 9oz in 3-4 days!! So we don't have to go back till her one month check up now.
Later today Jason and London spent some time outside and went to the playground. Missing out on sweet moments like that make this mama sad. I was already away from her when I took Madison to the pediatrician, and then away from her again when they went and played. I know its good for her and selfish on my part to want to keep her with me all the time, I just know time goes by super fast and I feel like Im missing out on so much. So this evening, when madison was asleep when it was time to put london to bed, I went upstairs to rock her which i was so excited about because I hadn't been able to since Madison was born. We began singing songs and as we were singing Old Macdonald and London was picking out each animal, singing along with me, I began to cry. The kind of crying where you can hardly talk. She just seemed so big to me in that moment, especially compared to her newborn baby sister. Wasn't she just that small yesterday?! I wish I could bottle up every second of every day and be able to open them up anytime I want to. I guess thats somewhat the point of this blog, even though Im terrible about posting, but thats way off subject so anywho, as I was saying…we were singing, I was crying, and then I heard Madison crying and Jason bringing her upstairs. I managed to cut off the water works so he wouldn't see, I hate looking like an emotional train wreck, but as soon as I walked out the door and he took my place to finish rocking London, all ugly cry broke loose. I hated leaving her, and I can only hope that she doesn't think I am CHOOSING Madison over her, but I know she doesn't understand that this is how it has to be right now since Madison is breast feeding and mommy is the only one who can feed her right now. It will get easier, I know, but right now…its hard.
Day 5: 2/28/2015
Today was an easier day. Madison was going to already be a week old tomorrow. Isn't so crazy how the days just drag on and on and sometimes you just wish they'd be over already! But then before you know it a week, a month, and year has gone by. Im trying to remind myself of that every day, and to not wish for any amount of time to speed by, and to find joy in every moment. Even the difficult ones where you think you're head is going to explode.
We also attempted to give both girls a bath together this evening. It was Madison's first time in the tub (her umbilical cord was not in the water, no worries) and she was not a fan. So the double bath was not a success. But one day those will be fun. I hope.
Day 6: 3/1/2015
HAPPY 1 WEEK DOLLY BABY
Today was also Gabby's FIFTH birthday. I still remember the night Jason brought her to the house and surprised me with her. Best. gift. ever. Love this fur baby.